Sunday, November 1, 2026

Halloween Post! (spooky because im emo)

 

Hi Pumpkins! 


I didn't really do anything for halloween this year, but instead spent some time on the couch feeling nostalgic. 

I've always been more of a christmas girly for many reasons but i always loved dressing up for halloween and spending time with friends. This month has been so crazy for me, I've been booked and busy every single day, and so I was really looking forward to taking this weekend to rest and reset. 

However, yesterday (halloween) I felt so sad because I wasn't doing anything. My bf didn't want to do a couples costume with me, and even if he did we wouldn't really have anywhere to go to show it. My friends invited me to the club with them, which isn't superrr my scene and I was fine saying no but then the day of I was getting serious fomo. 

I think lately I've just been feeling so out of touch from the world. Sometimes that's ok because.... well, our world is crazy. And I don't mind being set apart from lots of things. And I'm not even the biggest halloween fan. It just would feel nice to be a part of a community again. Ever since I moved away from home I've been feeling so lonely, even when I'm surrounded by people all the time (new post about that coming soon). 

Anyways, since I've been feeling nostalgic and a bit sad, here are some of my childhood halloween costumes from deep into my dad's facebook. Him and I aren't in the greatest place right now, and his FB is full of pics of us from when I was younger, so trust me when I say I dug deep for these pics lol.



Enjoy these and I'll try to share what I remember from them. Pls share what you dressed up as/did for this year's halloween or your favorite memory from the holiday! Love u all.



Here's a pic of me from fall 2009. I think this was in our yard and I jumped straight into the pile of leaves my dad had just raked. I don't know if it was this time or another year, but I remember one time I "cannonballed" into a leaf pile in our front yard but landed on my back and got the wind knocked out of me and had a minor panic attack because I couldn't breathe and didn't know what was happening lol. Safe to say that might have been the last time I did that.


This is me in a monkeysuit in my favorite aunt's fridge. my dad's FB post is captioned saying that I must have gotten hot in the costume, but I'm pretty sure I was just terrified of this dog hahaha. They had a bunch of boxers (the dogs) throughout the years and I remember being absolutely so scared of them, I would jump on top of the counters and just cry lol. 

Here's a better pic of the monkeysuit! This must have been the same year, and I remember this was the year I went trick or treating at the Broncos' Coach's house, and he was really nice and. gave us full-sized candybars. And for some reason I think they let us come inside the house? i dont remember why. I do remember that his daughter was mean to me, I think. She was dressed as minnie mouse and said it was cooler than a monkey🥲
#immorenicheandcoolandfunnythanu


This year me and my dad were yo-gabba-gabba characters. i loveeed that show. I think we were very last minute with this and that's why my mom was a witch hahah she was so cute. Her fav color is red so ik she loved this costume. I can sooo vividly remember picking out this costume and trying it on at the spirit halloween store for the first time. I can even smell it, like the plasticky-foamy smell. Lol. And the decorations ooohhhh my goodness I loved this house sooo much and like me and my mom spent so long decorating it was so fun. I miss her.



Now I don't love this pic bc i feel a bit cringe towards it but also that was me as a little girl like hey be nice. My mom actually wore this costume when she was my age, and my grandma made it for her so I was so excited to wear it as well. My grandma made my mom and aunt's costumes their whole lives, I think she made the monkey too along with a frog, raggedy ann doll, and clown costumes. She made more for sure, but those were all ones that my mom saved and I reused. It's really sweet to look back and think about. Love u granny.


Anyways, that was all the hallowen pics I could find and now I'm emo because I miss my family. I did find more christmas pics though, so stay tuned for those as it gets closer to the holidays (eeeekkkk can't wait!!!!!) 

Let me know which was your fav! Love you all. Hope you have a safe and fun weekend! <3



beijos, 
xo SPB





Wednesday, October 21, 2026

mini(?)post: nervessss

 Helloooo! 


I am so nervous I am about to have a meeting with so many important people at my uni and i feel like im gonna be so awkward or trip and fall on my face or something lololol pls wish me luck



Also comment if there's anything you want me to touch on! I have been so busy but I would loveee to make some more posts soon hehe

Saturday, October 10, 2026

minipost: inquiry

 what's it called when you crave intimacy but are scared of opening up ;P asking for a friend

Tuesday, October 6, 2026

minipost: what other pants than jeans

 i want a personal stylist. i never wear half of my clothes and also i feel like i wear jeans every single day what are some other stylish pants i can wear that arent jeans? pls lmk thank you😽

Sunday, October 4, 2026

minipost: current read

 about to start duplicity

minipost: rollercoaster

 i feel like half depressed all the time and then half yolo/idgaf/im the hottest and smartest ever and im living my life kinda mindset. it's like back and forth back and forth and i cannottt do this anymore omg.


sometimes i feel so good and then its like i zoom out and im like what am i doing with my life omg.

Saturday, September 26, 2026

bigpost: good things come to those who.... don't care?

 hellooo wonderful amazing swagalicious sugarplumbblondielovers. 

i hope you're having the best day! 

lately i have been sooo busy and i know that i've been neglecting you. sorry! but i'm here to talk about that a bit. Without revealing too many specifics about my life -- gotta stay anonymous out here -- I'm going to open up a tad!

Monday, September 14, 2026

bigpost: journalling, spreading ur wings, and a big fat caffine-induced braindump

hello kind soul! 


it is monday at like 9:30, i've just had an energy drink, and i'm about to lock in on a research paper that's kicking my butt rn. 

Sunday, September 13, 2026

miniupdate: no longer on hiatus!

hi beautiful readers! 


i have been on accidental hiatus. sorry! i've been so caught up with school and work and i've barely made time for myself this past month. hopefully that will change asap! 


hope you all are well! missed u. 

give me some updates in the comments! i'll write back ;) 


love you!  

SPB

Sunday, August 23, 2026

mini-post: stresssssed

 hiiii i have like three posts in the works but am so unmotivated and lowkey depressed. hate school so bad this is a lot of work and pressure and a lot of my professors are new and don't know what theyre doing and im lowkey already behind 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

hope you guys are well! new stuff coming soon.


also did u see me fighting for my life in my tiktok comments? why everyone hating? so annoyed.


going bananas, 

SPB

Wednesday, August 12, 2026

currently on my wishlist

hello beauties! 

i am currently in a need-to-spend mood. well, i have been for the past manymany days, but there's just one problem: i don't have the funds.

hey, poor is a mindset. broke is just a temporary situation okay? and lemme tell u, i've got a mindset that's loadeddd and am just waiting for the zeroes to be added to my bank account (probably like 6 of 'em). 

so, while my bank is buffering, here is everything on my buy list. don't judge, there's levels to this, ok?

Saturday, August 8, 2026

words of wisdom

be generous & fill other people's cups up. whoever refreshes others will be refreshed

prov11:25

Wednesday, August 5, 2026

minipost: chats

 i <3 talking on the phone! especially in the car. but also not in the car because i love listening to music.

also i love stickers and sending them

especially when its a baby or animal or cam from modern family 

end minipost🫰

Tuesday, August 4, 2026

minipost: internet

nothing makes me more mad than slow wifi oh my goodness my brain is working finally and i have so many good thoughts and ideas and om freaking g nothing is loading im going to cry and simultaneously throw myself through a wall


end minipost.

trust your intuition

 hi lovelies!



something I both appreciate immensely and also hate hate hate is my gut. not the actual organ (organ? muscle? body part of some sort....) but my intuition, my sense of things. whether it really is my intuition, or God or pattern recognition, or a combination of some sort.

Saturday, July 25, 2026

Thursday, July 23, 2026

writing a book?

for as long as i can remember, i've always had book ideas.

i've always loved reading, and sometimes i would have alternative ideas for books and be like hey! i could do this too.

Sunday, July 19, 2026

Creativity >>>> Consumption

 Dear Readers, 

i heard something about a year ago-- well, no, I saw a tiktok... (PS anytime I say "I heard" or "I read something about.." it was probably from TikTok... sorry. 

anyways, it was this girl talking about how her goal is to create more than she consumes, and it really stuck with me.